I Knew You Were Trouble

If you're looking for uplifting post, turn away now. Click back, read some other blog that makes their life seem like a walk in the park or go to LDS.org and read the latest message from the apostles. This post is not going to be happy in the least. You've been warned.

You know that moment in The Dark Knight Rises where Bruce Wayne is in prison and doing sit-ups and the prison doctor says that he is afraid of Bane? Do you remember his response? "I'm not afraid. I'm angry." Yeah that's me right now. Combine that with the bitch Miranda sticking a knife in his side while his back is turned.

Honesty is something that has always been important to me. My dad cheated on my mom. My ex-girlfriend (who I was practically engaged to) cheated on me with at least two other guys while we were dating. I don't trust people easily, but when I do, I trust them with everything. Lose my trust, you're gonna have to work your ass off to earn it back.

One of my charms/character flaws is that I am always honest. I say what I think and hold no bars with it. I'm not gonna pretend to like someone if I don't like them, but I'm also going to stick by my word if I do something. People always come to me if they want an honest opinion. They know I will level with them. My sisters do it all the time when they're trying on clothes.

My youngest sister is a pathological liar. She's so frustrating because she attempts to convince our family that she is living like she was taught when we all know she's living with her boyfriend, having sex, partying, drinking, etc. What makes me more angry than anything is that she doesn't own up to what she does. Don't pretend to be something your not.

My sisters actions and my feelings toward them pretty much sum up how I feel right now about other people in my life. I've had a couple of people come into my life recently who seem to have no problem pointing out my faults, mistakes and shortcomings. They seem to be under the mistaken delusion at times that I was romantically attracted to them (don't flatter yourself honey). I was being a good friend. You know what that means? Honesty, loyalty, compassion, and love. Don't bull shit me and accuse me of behaving a certain way or having other motives when I've always been upfront and honest. It's funny how they can be so quick to point the finger and then turn around and go do the thing that they were so worried that I was going to do to them.

People make mistakes and I get that. But don't tell me one thing and go around and do another, because the thing you feared so much with me is the thing you're now doing. Your word is all you have and once you go past your word, you have nothing.

From For The Strength of Youth

"Everyone needs good and true friends. They will be a great strength and blessing to you. They will influence how you think and act, and even help determine the person you will become. They will help you be a better person and will make it easier for you to live the gospel of Jesus Christ. Choose friends who share your values so you can strengthen and encourage each other in living high standards.
To have good friends, be a good friend. Show genuine interest in others; smile and let them know you care about them. Treat everyone with kindness and respect, and refrain from judging and criticizing those around you. Do not participate in any form of bullying. Make a special effort to be a friend to those who are shy or lonely, have special needs, or do not feel included.
As you seek to be a friend to others, do not compromise your standards. If your friends urge you to do things that are wrong, be the one to stand for the right, even if you stand alone. You may need to find other friends who will support you in keeping the commandments. Seek the guidance of the Holy Ghost as you make these choices."



  1. Read that section in For the Strength of Youth a little closer. It says to treat everyone with kindness and respect, and refrain from judging and criticizing those around you. Those people who have been mistreating you certainly sound like assholes, so you're better off without them, but the way you gloated over Mac getting kicked out of BYU (even though he was an asshole) makes me think you're judging pretty harshly in these kinds of things.

    Sorry for being anonymous. I'm still in the closet.

  2. By the way, I love all the Taylor Swift references.


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