Begin Again


It's January 1st, 2013. The ending of one chapter of my life and the beginning of the next. 

Over the course of the past year, I have grown more than any year previous. It has seem some of my highest highs and lowest lows. It has seen my heart broken and scarred, only to be shown new and greater light. 

In 2012:

I made fewer mistakes in regards to my SSA. 

I made progress with acceptance of my sexuality. I am more at peace with myself, being able to meet my needs; healthy physical intimacy, being told I love you. 

I made it through 4 straight semesters of college (with good grades mind you).

My temple attendance has increased. 

I had some of the most incredible, honest people enter my life. Wonderful men that are here by my side through my struggle, who understand and love me just the same.

I started this blog. 

Looking forward to 2013, I have much hope. There is so much to look forward to and experience. It will be once again a year of transition for me:

I have two semesters of my undergraduate to finish up and then I will graduate with my Bachelors.

I'll move away from the college bubble I've lived in for the past 2+ years to the big city.

I'll resume work at the hospital. 

I'll study for and take the MCAT. Then apply for med school.

As it is New Year's I will make some resolutions. I know a lot of people have pessimism towards these, but I'm really being sincere here so bear with me:

I want improve upon my struggles of masturbation and pornography. I won't say overcome them all together because I won't be so ignorant to believe I can fully commit to that. 

I want to attend the temple weekly, as long as I am worthy.

I want to continue my new found love of crossfit, and continue to keep exercise important in my life. I want to continue to attend the gym five days a week.

I want to go on more dates (with girls). 

I want to strengthen my current friendships and find fulfillment in them. I want to be a better and more compassionate friend. 

I want to better my relationships with members of my family. Become closer and more honest with them.

And last but not least, I want improve my relationship with my Savior and my Heavenly Father. I will do this by scripture study, prayer, temple attendance, church attendance, fulfilling my priesthood callings, giving more service, and counseling with the Lord in all things.

To anyone that reads my blog, know that I do have Christlike love for you and you got a friend here. I can be a douchbag at times and get pretty emotional, but I do care.

If you ever feel you need a friend or someone to talk to, I'm here.

Happy New Year y'all! May it be a good one. 

And you throw your head back laughing
Like a little kid
I think it's strange that you think I'm funny cause
He never did
I've been spending the last 8 months
Thinking all love ever does
Is break and burn and end
But on a Wednesday in a cafe
I watched it begin again

Cheers,
GMSW 








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