Gay Mormon Stripling Warrior

THE FAMILY A PROCLAMATION TO THE WORLD The  F irst  P residency and  C ouncil of the  T welve  A postles of the C hurch of  J esus  C hrist of  L atter- D ay  S aints W E, THE FIRST PRESIDENCY  and the Council of the Twelve Apostles of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, solemnly proclaim that marriage between a man and a woman is ordained of God and that the family is central to the Creator’s plan for the eternal destiny of His children. ALL HUMAN BEINGS —male and female—are created in the image of God. Each is a beloved spirit son or daughter of heavenly parents, and, as such, each has a divine nature and destiny. Gender is an essential characteristic of individual premortal, mortal, and eternal identity and purpose. IN THE PREMORTAL REALM,  spirit sons and daughters knew and worshipped God as their Eternal Father and accepted His plan by which His children could obtain a physical body and gain earthly ...

If you've been following my blog, you've noticed that this semester has been the semester from hell for me. There's been a lot that has gone on and the majority of it has been out of my control. Twice now this semester I have found myself suicidal, the most recent being two weeks ago. I didn't realize how far along I was with my thought process until I came across the warning signs of suicidal behavior and it scared me: 5 Warning Signs of Suicidal Behavior: -Talking about having no purpose -Withdrawing or isolating oneself -Displaying extreme mood swings -Abruptly ending relationships -Avoiding work, school or jobs  I fit every single one of these warning signs. I've felt beaten and have frequently retreated to my room to be by myself and away from everyone. My moods have gone from happy to extreme depression and loneliness. I have felt frustrated with friendships in my life and felt like people didn't care about me and weren't putting a...

Driving home from the gym today, I broke. My iPod was on shuffle and Marilyn Monroe by Nicki Minaj came on: Truth is we mess up Till we get it right I don't want to end up losing my soul I can get low, I can get low Don’t know which way is up Yea I can get high, I can get high Like I could never come down Call it a curse Or just call me blessed If you can’t handle my worst You ain’t getting my best Is this how Marilyn Monroe felt? Must be how Marilyn Monroe felt All the emotions from the past week or so came flooding in as I gasped for air and felt tears flood my eyes and stream down my face.  I arrived home and went straight to my room. I shut the door and in the dark I collapsed against it and just let myself cry alone.  This breakdown has been a long time coming, but the straw that broke the camels back today was failing an Organic Chemistry Exam (again, second in a row, and if its possible, I did even worse). I studied my ass off, and gave up sleep, a ...

These times will try hard to define me, And I'll try to hold my head up high. But I've seen despair here, from the inside, It's got a one track mind. And I have this feeling in my gut now, And I don't know what it is I'll find. Does anybody, ever feel like, you're always one step behind Now I'm sitting alone here in my bed, I'm waiting for an answer I don't know that I'll get I cannot stand to look in the mirror, I'm failing I'm telling you, these times are hard but they will... And I know there's someone out there somewhere That has it much worse than I do. But I have a dream inside, a perfect life, I'd give anything just to work It's like I'm only trying to dig my way out of all these things I can't And I am, Sitting alone here in my bed, I'm waiting for an answer I don't know that I'll get I cannot stand to look in the mirror, I'm failing I'm telling you; these times are...